I'm lying across my bed looking at the ceiling, thanking God for my health and well-being. I'm so lucky to be alive and able to write this book. I have made some selfish and immature decisions that could have caused me my life.
Growing up I developed a negative attitude about life. My parents divorced when I was young and I watched my mom struggle to try to make sure her three kids had everything they wanted and needed if necessary and as I got older I found a way to get things on my own. I had my heart broken many times in the past, which only made me stronger. Shortly after my parents divorced, when I was is the forth grade, my dad walked out of our lives. He would come and take us skating on Saturday mornings, but after a while that stopped. I would call him and that was the only way that we talked, so I began to look up to my older brother Cleo, he was four years older than me and he took the time out for me and kept me up to date on how men were and that they only wanted to get some tail. But he went to the Military when I was fifteen, then was sent to Desert Storm so I didn't have anybody. My mom was there, but she was mostly at work and it wasn't the same. Then this guy tried to take my goodies. My girls and I would always wrestle in the hallways with the boys, this particular day I had on a skirt. Travis, this boy at my school ran up behind me and tried to slam me on the ground, but he couldn't get me down.
"Stop Travis, I quit."
"Alright, alright." He acted like he was walking away and then he ran over and picked me up over his shoulder. I started screaming and grabbing the back of my skirt, so my panties wouldn't show. He Carried me into the girl's locker room.
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Excerpt for Diamond's Pearl
Chapter 1
Regina and Diamond are three years apart, but Regina wouldn't dare allow Diamond to hang out with her, and when she had a problem, Regina had no time to listen or give her advise like a big sister should. Regina worked two jobs, but when she wasn't at work she was either with her friends or on a date with some guy. Diamond usually sat outside her sister's bedroom door acting as if she was reading a book while she watched her get ready for a date. She usually put on a tight pair of jeans that showed her curvy shape or a short skirt that showed her big legs. Regina had what you call a "sha-dunk-a-dunk," a straight up ghetto booty. Diamond always wished she was just like her sister and able to do the things that she did. She had all of the latest clothes, kept her hair and nails done and a ton of associates, unlike Diamond who only had a couple of females that she associated with. Diamond couldn't wait for Regina to leave so that she could go into her room and put on her make up and her fancy clothes.
"Oh, I look nice, but not as nice as Regina," Diamond thought. All Diamond wanted from Regina was a little of her time, but all they did was argue and fist fight. Diamond ended up getting pregnant when she was fourteen, she hid it from her mother as long as she could, but her mother began to notice her not having a period after the third month of 'faking it'. Diamond had started to forget to wrap unused pads in toilet tissue and throw them in the trash, and with the temperature in Cottonwood, Arizona reaching one hundred and ten degrees most days, she couldn't wear big clothes to hide her once flat stomach.
"Come on Diamond, we're going on a road trip," her mother said. Diamond's mother, Rosetta, didn't play and she knew it, so she didn't ask any questions because she knew that it would only cause more drama. Rosetta took Diamond to the local women's clinic and made her take a pregnancy test and when the test came back positive, Diamond was every ho, bitch and slut there was under the sun and her life only got worse.